Some things about me...

This blog is anonymous, but I still think anyone who reads it should have the right to know things about me, so I found this list of 99 questions on tumblr and answered them.
(And boy did it take me forever.) But here you go.

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

Oh geez. This is way hard. I have no idea, but my best guess would be Drops of Jupiter by Train, Classic by MKTO, Sunday Morning by Maroon 5, Enchanted and All Too Well by Taylor Swift, and I Must Be Dreaming by the Maine.

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Again, this is way too hard. I could maybe narrow it down to Ellen DeGeneres, Chris Colfer, and Tyra Banks. Ellen inspires me because of how dedicated to charity she is. I am a big Chris Colfer fan because he is talented in so many areas; he can act and dance and sing and write and give speeches. Tyra is probably one of the most confident people in the country, and as a real successful model, she is always telling people to be happy with themselves and how they look and to understand their true beauty.

3: Grab the book nearest to you, open to a random page and pick a random line.

"I wanted to be seen as an excellent lawyer, not an excellent woman lawyer."

This is from Off The Sidelines by Kirsten Gillibrand. If you don’t know who she is, she is the New York State Senator- a conservative Democrat. I am reading the book for a class but we were able to pick the representative. It’s a really great book about being a woman in the business and political world, and how as women we need to fight for our rights, even when we know it will be a tough fight.

4: What do you think about most?

Um, everything that I’m stressed about, because I’m always stressed about something.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

My last received text was from my best friend, but all it says is ‘sure’. Not that exciting. It was just her responding to me recommending we go to lunch at 1.

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

I sleep with clothes, but only light clothes, because I hate being hot when I’m sleeping.

7: What's your strangest talent?

Well, I don’t know what is considered weird, but I’m like the bomb at making lists. I also am pretty good at catching food in my mouth. So that’s cool.

8: Girls... (finish the sentence); Boys... (finish the sentence)

Girls rule, boys drool? I don’t know what else.

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

I don’t think so, but I guess I could just not know. I have written them about other people though. In high school I was on the competition poetry team. I got 2^nd place in the nature category for writing a poem about how I hated Walt Whitman but my teacher told me I needed to write a Whitmanesque poem.

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

Well I play real guitar, so I rarely play air guitar. But the last time I played regular guitar was a couple days ago when my friend Laura who is a singer came over and we played Hey Stephen for my friend Stephen.

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

Yes. It’s embarrassing, but I am like deathly afraid of fish. I’m a swimmer but I won’t go into open water. I’m also afraid of ghosts. I mean, a lot of people are afraid of ghosts, but it’s a problem for me because I’m real interested in them so I watch all the shows about them and then don’t sleep for weeks because I convince myself that my room is haunted.

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Um what? Ew no.

13: What's your religion?

I’m Russian Orthodox. It’s real similar to Catholic, but slightly different days for holidays and it’s a little bit more conservative.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

My school is on one of the Finger Lakes, so I love to go outside and take pictures of the boathouse, and the light reflecting off the water, and the sunset over the lake.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Both, but I’m probably more often behind the camera because I love to take pictures. I really like to document things that I do so that I can look back on them. Of course if I’m doing something fun, I want to make sure to get pictures of myself too. I sort of force my friends to take pictures of me and with me.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

I probably listen more to individual artists than to bands, in which case I would say Taylor Swift.

17: What was the last lie you told?

I mean, I try not to lie too often, but I did tell my professor I wasn’t feeling well so I couldn’t go to class, which wasn’t necessarily true because I wasn’t sick, but I think mental health should count.

18: Do you believe in karma?

I don’t believe in it, but I really wish it existed.

19: What does your URL mean?

I don’t know what the letters specifically stand for but I know it’s just like a web address.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

My greatest weakness is that I worry too much. I worry that I’m doing things wrong or that I’m not pleasing people. I think my greatest strength is my independence. I can make my own decisions and stand up for myself.

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

Well I have a new celebrity crush every week. I like to tweet about my weekly obsessions, but I think Zac Efron will always win over all of them. He’s freaking gorgeous, and I grew up during the high school musical age, and now he’s doing more mature stuff and I just love him.

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

I have not, mostly because I’m not comfortable, but when the lake is warm enough, I go swimming at night with my teammates and some of them will skinny dip.

23: How do you vent your anger?

I guess this depends on the issue. I’m lucky to have friends who I can talk to about things, and in some issues I talk it out with my friends. Other times I just wait out the problem. When something upsets me, I usually get over it. Sometimes this is good, because it doesn’t eat away at me, but other times I think it’s bad because then I’m not taking care of the issue and I’m just letting it go.

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

Yes! I collect parrots; not real ones. I have pictures and statuettes and clay ones and all kinds. I get them almost every place I visit and I name them all. My favorites are probably the painted ceramic ones I have hanging from my ceiling so they look real. I always wanted a real one because they are so pretty, but my parents thought it would be too loud. Also the macaws are like way expensive.

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Neither. I’m just really busy sometimes so texting is so much easier. If it needs to include talking then I will skype if the conversation is going to be long, but I will talk on the phone if it’s going to be quick.

26: Are you happy with the person you've become?

I’m only a college student, so I feel like I’m still developing as a person. I am pleased with a lot of aspects of myself. I am confident and headstrong and driven. Sometimes I stress too much and I am stubborn, but I will learn how to fix those things about myself. I have always been responsible and independent and determined to learn and be successful, so I am lucky to be that way.

27: What's a sound you hate; sound you love?

I hate really loud things, like the vacuum and the blow dryer. I love the sound of ocean waves and pouring rain. Doesn’t everybody?

28: What's your biggest "what if"?

My biggest ‘what if’ is what if my life doesn’t work out as planned. I have such a set vision of what the rest of my life will be like- college, law school, good job, big cases, hopefully in the papers for making big changes. My biggest what if is what if it doesn’t happen that way, and if it doesn’t, what way will it go?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Well yeah, I said earlier I totally believe in ghosts; all the way. Aliens? Maybe. I definitely think they are possible- the universe is so huge, there’s no way we can be the only ones. I’m not sure if I believe in any of the alien sightings people have claimed on Earth, but that’s just because I haven’t really researched it.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

I touched the wall and a notebook, because I’m typing this on my bed next to my bookshelf with all my homework.

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

I smell my room smell. You know how everyone’s room has its own smell? Well I think they do. They aren’t always bad smells, they are just unique to that person and you can’t always explain what creates that smell, just that it’s the room smell.

32: What's the worst place you have ever been to?

Oh geez, I feel like I have probably tried to block those memories out, so I can’t be totally sure. I’ve been plenty of awesome places, so they sort of override any bad memories, but I can think of one. In high school I went on a trip to Spain, France and Italy with other students and we had such an awesome time in Spain so we had high expectations for France and the first day we had to walk way more than we were expecting and the weather wasn’t nice and the place we were at fed us this super gross meal that none of us ate so then we were starving all day. I mean, it’s not that the country was bad, but just the circumstances made it hard to enjoy.

I know, France is a horrible answer right? Sorry

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

I haven’t been to the west coast, so I’m kind of biased, but I do love the east coast. I love New England and I love the southern states like Virginia and South Carolina and Georgia. I am dying to go to California though.

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

This is hard. I had to look it up so I wouldn’t miss anyone. I really have trouble picking people based solely on looks, because their voice and their style make them so much more attractive. My friend likes to play this game called top 5 where you name the top 5 people in school you would sleep with, solely based on looks, and I just can’t do it because I have to take into account what type of person they are. Oh! Do Broadway people count? Well they should, and in that case Aaron Tveit. I would say Jeremy Jordan who is my favorite Broadway actor, but he’s married so I have up home. Aaron is my second favorite. Oh and I met him. He’s gorgeous.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

Are you kidding? This is way too hard. I think it’s different for everyone, and it’s their choice. For me I guess I haven’t really decided, but I just want to aim for being happy. In my opinion that means being successful in my career- that will make me happy. So everyone should just do what makes them happy.

36: Define Art.

There is no way I can define art- I especially cannot make it brief. Art envelopes so many things and it means something different to everyone. I think that’s the great thing about art- it can be something different to everyone.

37: Do you believe in luck?

I am not really sure about this one. I believe in bad luck, because I jinx myself all the time. So I guess that means I also have to believe in good luck?

38: What's the weather like right now?

It’s freaking cold because I live in central New York and our weather sucks all the time. Well not all the time but like 8 months of the year.

39: What time is it?

Um, it’s 1am. Oh geez it’s 1am. I can’t sleep in.

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Yes I drive. No I have not crashed and knock on wood I don’t. That would be bad. I hope that doesn’t happen.

41: What was the last book you read?

This depends on if it is referring to a textbook or a book for fun. The last book I read for a class was Gideon’s Trumpet for my legal history class. It’s about the Supreme Court case that made the law that people who can’t afford attorneys will be appointed one. I love that case and that type of law. The last book I read for fun was Drinking My Way Through 14 Dating Websites. I’m not really sure what attracted me to it, but it was pretty insightful. Anyone who is considering online dating should read it just to get a feel for what the experience is like.

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

I am pretty indifferent to it.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

Some of my teammates call me sparkles because I wear a lot of glitter. One of my friends used to call me princess, but unfortunately we aren’t friends anymore.

44: What was the last film you saw?

I watch stuff on Netflix a lot so I don’t remember exactly what the last movie I watched was, but I recently watched a movie called Not Another Happy Ending. It’s about a writer who becomes very successful, but once her life is together, she can’t write because she only writes when she’s upset or stressed, so her editor tries to ruin her life so that she will write another book for him, but then he falls in love with her. I love romantic comedies.

45: What's the worst injury you've ever had?

I’m lucky to not have had too many injuries- knock on wood again. I have way too many knots in my back though, which is because I’m a swimmer, and the knots make my back hurt pretty much all hours of the day.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

I don’t believe so, but when I was younger I remember catching fireflies in jars in my aunts backyard on a summer night. That’s a great memory.

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

I always have obsessions; literally all the time. Right now I would say I’m pretty obsessed with Derek Hough which happens every few months. He is my favorite professional dancer on Dancing With the Stars and my friend and I are trying to get tickets to see him in the Radio City show this spring.

48: What's your sexual orientation?

I’m straight, but I really don’t think that there should be any terms for sexual orientation. People should be able to like whoever they like and there shouldn’t be a need to label it because people just like people and that’s all there is to it. This shouldn’t be a question people feel the need to ask.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

I think this happens to everyone all the time, so yeah it has happened to me. It sucks but it happens and I have learned to build a thick skin when it comes to things like that.

50: Do you believe in magic?

…in a young girl’s heart!

You know that song right? You should.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

I really wish I did, but I don’t. When someone wrong’s you, I think you should hold a grudge because it will show them that what they did was wrong. Unfortunately I forgive everybody- I am really bad at holding grudges. Yeah I’m still upset about whatever happened, but I have this need to be nice to everybody, so I can’t hold a grudge. I wish I wasn’t like this though, because it’s like I am telling them that what they did was okay.

52: What is your astrological sign?

I’m a Cancer, but I’m not really sure if that means anything.

53: Do you save money or spend it?

I do both. I spend money when I really want something, but I know how to save and how to say no to things.

54: What's the last thing you purchased?

I bought a black dress when I went shopping this weekend. Fashion tip- you can never have too many black dresses.

55: Love or lust?

Love. Duh.

56: In a relationship?

I’m not in a relationship right now. Ugh they are so tough and complicated to get into.

57: How many relationships have you had?

I hate when people ask this question. Does it matter? I don’t think people should be judged on their experience.

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Haha no I cannot.

59: Where were you yesterday?

Yesterday I was at school.

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes of course there is. I don’t know that it’s my favorite color, but I love the black/pink/white color scheme and I love when things match, so when I got a comforter in that color scheme, I had to make everything in my room match it.

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

I am not, because they make my feet hot.

62: What's your favourite animal?

Parrots!

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

I don’t want to have to make someone like me. I want them to like me because of the person I am, not because I specifically went out of my way to do something that made them like me. I want them to like the everyday me.

64: Where is your best friend?

The problem with this is that best friends change all the time. It’s unfortunate. Probably the thing I’ve always wanted most in life is a best friend that lasts, and it’s the only thing I’ve never had because they are always betraying me and letting me down. My current best friend is probably sleeping in her room right now because it’s freaking 1:30am.

65: Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr.

Are you kidding? I can’t. I really love political blogs though because they can be fun and funny and truthful and they make people think about things that are important.

66: What is your heritage?

I’m actually adopted, but I was raised by a Russian family, which is pretty cool.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

I was definitely sleeping. Sleep is really important to me, especially as an athlete, so I always try to get 8 hours. This is pretty ironic though since I have a sleeping problem.

68: What do you think is Satan's last name?

Um, Satan? Idk.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

Whoa whoa whoa. Don’t go around asking people that. Like please don’t ever ask someone that because it could make them feel uncomfortable and that’s not nice. Also don’t tell me what to do.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

Yes, I definitely think so. I am an incredibly loyal person and always trying to please people, so yeah I would want a friend like that. I might be a little needy or a little forceful or pushy, but we all have our flaws.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Are you kidding me? I would in no circumstance choose work over a dog in danger! Also as a lifeguard it would be my duty. Also I would for sure sue my boss or bring the incident to someone higher up than him because I should not get fired for saving a dog. Also I am super obsessed with being on time so I would never be at risk of being fired for being late- unless I was saving dogs every day.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

A)     I would probably write letters to people to read after the fact, because I imagine it would suck to know that everyone knows about it. B) I have no freaking idea! I would probably use all the money I have to buy plane tickets to go to places that I’ve always wanted to go. Or I would by tickets to a bunch of Broadway shows and then wait outside to meet my favorite actors and take pictures with them. C) Hell yeah!

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

This is not fair. Aren’t they mutual? Either would be ruined knowing the other couldn’t exist.

74: What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

Probably Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield; it’s a fun and uplifting song, and she has a great vocal range in it. Also there’s a choir that sings along at the end which makes the last chorus really cool to listen to.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

Haha no.

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

I would say commitment, because if neither person is really dedicated to the relationship, then there’s no point in being in one. If your heart’s not in it, then it’s not genuine.

77: How can I win your heart?

Be a good person.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

I think it can, but it can also bring crime and stuff like that, so I wouldn’t encourage striving for insanity.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

I don’t know when it happened, but at some point I finally gained the ability to stop fighting for friendships that weren’t worth it. I’ve had a lot of toxic friendships and a lot of people who take me for granted and treat me like crap, and only recently was I able to stop trying to keep up with friendships that were hurting me. I’m really glad I was finally able to do that and make those decisions.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

I wear a ten which sucks because there’s never any shoes in that size.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

That is not a decision I feel prepared to make now.

82: What is your favorite word?

This is the stupidest question. There are a lot of words.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

Broken. Is that bad? It’s probably just because it’s so common.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

I always say patience is a virtue, because I really hate impatient people. It’s kind of ironic though because I tend to be pretty impatient. I’m working on it though.

85: What's the last song you listened to?

I think it was Dear Future Husband by Meghan Trainor. She’s great.

86: Basic question; what's your favorite color?

This is tough because it depends on the context: favorite color clothing, favorite color in the sunset, favorite color crayon. Usually my go-to answer is purple.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

Right now it is an image of a painting that I found un tumblr. It is a couple walking down a lit street at night with trees lining the walk. It is mostly shapes though with not a lot of small details, and the trees are really colorful like dark blue and orange and red.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

This is so tough. Right now, it would probably be my old best friend. I gave so much to her and really devoted my life to being her friend. It became such a norm for me and I relied on her and then she just dumped me without explanation and acted like I never existed. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. It was a lot like a breakup and for a long time I couldn’t leave my room because my life had been flipped upside down and I didn’t know how to make up for this big hole in my life. It’s still tough now because so many things remind me of her, and it really sucks because I wish I could prove that I don’t need her, because I’m so upset that she would do that to me after I gave everything I had to our friendship.

89: What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?

I would probably be afraid to tell the truth about my previous answer. It was really tough for me, and I’m the kind of person who tries to be strong for everybody. So it’s tough for me to admit weakness.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?

I would most definitely have a heart attack or a stroke or something that resulted in me passing out.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

I have seriously always wanted to fly. How cool would that be? I could get places faster and have the bird’s eye view and it would probably be really peaceful.

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

I would seriously love to relive the point when I put a little dent in my parent’s car. It is really small and hardly noticeable but I have such a guilty conscience that I just feel so bad about it.

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

This is tough, but like I said, I would really love to forget the ending of that friendship.

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Zac Efron; no doubt about it.

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Well Monaco was definitely the prettiest place I’ve ever been, but this past winter I went to London and had such an amazing time there and I felt so much happier than I did at school, so I would probably go there.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

No? I don’t think so.

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

No! I have been in a car with someone who threw up though, but that was because she gets car sick, not because she was drinking.

98: Ever been on a plane?

Yes! I’ve traveled a lot. I’ve been to a lot of places in the US, also Canada, Mexico, Cayman Islands, and various places in Europe.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

This depends on how brief I have to be. I would say to politicians, it’s time we have equal rights- rights that don’t regard race, gender, or sexual orientation. Every citizen gets the same rights. To girls my age, I would say stop finding ways to put yourself down- you are beautiful and talented and have no reason to believe otherwise. To everyone, I would say stop judging people and ideas. Don’t make judgements about things before you know more about them. It would make our society such a better place. (I realize this is geared more towards the US than the world, but you gotta start small.